Letter #6

Dear Ovid,

I just totally creep-ed on your facebook to see if you actually respond to anyone who writes on your wall and SURPRISE! you don't. I don't know if you understand how disheartening that is. I mean we all care about you and we want to know what is going on with you but no one likes to be thrown in the trash. I think thats why I haven't posted on the blog in a while. Because when you go home for christmas all you want to do is be with your family and, i'll be truthful, i forgot about my other family for a while. It also doesn't help that i went through some depression issues this semester- but now thats all over. Did you know that on sunday it had been a year since i left you all? You probably didn't know simply because for you nothing has changed since we left, the scenery is the same, the people are the same etc. but for us everything changed. but i felt like i should have been alot more disturbed by the fact that it had been a year than i actually was. It just kind of came and went. I wanted to send you a message but i knew you probably wouldn't respond. I bet you're wondering why I started this blog in the first place then, but really it was just in the hope that someday you would read this and realize how much i miss you. Haha :P I even wanted to write on your facebook today and ask how you were but after staring at the page for five minutes i didn't know what to say. But i will say that i am very thankful for farmville now because at least i know that you're still alive when you feed my chickens and when i see that you've rearranged the layout of your farm for the fifth time this month. Haha. Really, I used to be the biggest anti-farmville person but I really only play it to make sure that you are still breathing. Maybe I'm being a bit dramatic, I don't know but I can't really ask for advice because no one has ever been in my situation before, so I guess i'm doing the best i can relying on my own intuition. Sorry if its strange- but I normally am.

Till next time!

-Gen

Letter #5

Dear Ovid,

Its Christmas time and I wonder how everything is going over there. Are you with your family? And if so how is your family behaving? Are you with Peter and Heather? I hope they are doing well. Things are normal here, a little strange but still good. My cousin Paul is here to celebrate with us and I've had to deal with my horrible brat of a [extended] cousin Sydney who is just a horrible child. Mostly because her parents don't know how to raise her correctly. They giver her a game or a television to distract her so they don't really have to talk to her and its made her a not very loving child. Ugh. I don't look forward to seeing her tomorrow but its Christmas so I'll bear it. Thankfully I don't have to babysit her.

But I go back to school soon which I'm dreading because 1. I have to move into my new apartment, 2. I have to start studying, and 3. I have to face some people who I'm not excited to see. But here is good news! I wasn't really getting along with most of the people in my field but today I got a message from one of them out of the blue and we had a normal conversation!!! Also Cora sent me a Christmas message. If you see her give her a big hug for me please.

I hope you are doing well and have a very Happy Christmas my friend!

-Gen

Letter #4

Dear Ovid,

Do you remember Barry? He just wrote a note on facebook about you and his time in Romania. He made me cry- He misses you a lot.

Forever missing you,

-Gen

Letter #3

Dear Ovid,

So there is a lot I'd like to talk to you about, I mean the semester just ended and I'm back home from College and a lot of things are going to change next semester. But I really just want to tell you about something I realized recently. So there is a TV mini-series on a network called Syfy here that is called 'Alice.' Basically it is about what happened to Alice ten years after she left Wonderland (from 'Alice's Adventures in Wonderland' by Lewis Carrol- I highly recommend). It is on Youtube.com if you want to watch it is very good. But the reason why this is important is that while Alice is in Wonderland she meets Hatter- a very interesting, funny, and somewhat corrupt good guy. When she returns to her normal world she misses him a lot and she knows she will probably never see him again- that is until the last minute when her mother calls her out to meet 'David,' who 'saved her life' and it ends up being Hatter who traveled to her world because he missed her. Its a really good scene :D. But, not the point. What I wanted to say is what I realized from watching it. Do you remember I talked to you about that guy who liked me but is starting to get on my nerves? Well I realized from watching Hatter on 'Alice' that I believe I only liked that guy because he was the first ever to say that he actually liked me. But now I know what I really want. I want a friend- a guy who I can say anything to. A guy who would be pessimistic and we could get mad at each other. I want someone who sees the good in life but also the bad. Perfect guys are boring. Haha. Then maybe, something more serious will grow from there, if God wants it too. Now this guy and I kinda established that premise when he told me that he liked me. We said we'd be friends first and then something will grow. I know what you are thinking: how do you know that its not this guy that you're supposed to be with? Its just, he is not what I want- all he wants to do is see the good and live the good life and be happy, but without life's depressing moments that we delight in- can we truly grow as people?

So I mean I hope that someday I'll see you again. Maybe someday you'll travel from your world to mine and we'll have a reunion like Alice & Hatter/David on 'Alice.' Not that I'm expecting anything romantic- I don't want anything that isn't supposed to be there. I just hope that we'll be able to see each other again, you don't how much I want to see you again.

Your Friend,

-Gen

Letter #2

Dear Ovid,
F my life! I wish you were here with me because I know you would know how to make me smile. Finals are here, and I don't know if you have finals but they SUCK. I took two today and they didn't go well at all. Well at least I think they didn't- but most of the time when I think that I did bad, I do well so lets hope and pray for that okay? I'm sure if you do have finals in your econ courses that you'd feel the same way. Also there is this guy who likes me and I kinda liked him (sorry but when you are so far away its hard to not to). But he has been really annoying about the whole thing and I mean he is a nice guy but I just wish he didn't make me the focal point of his life. We're not even dating and he is like all over me (not physically but mentally). He is asking me on study dates when we have none of the same classes and he tries to go out of his way to be all chivalrous but, HEY! we're not dating so put the chivalry in your back pocket and wait for a girlfriend to come along okay? I mean friendship between a guy and girl is possible without having to resort to archaic forms of knighthood. Maybe I'm totally dissing all guys of your sex but I can't help it, I'm not like most girls.
How I wish I was back there with you Cora, Peter & Heather, because for once I didn't feel so weird. No, for serious, its such a relief to know that there are people out there who look like you, have the same eating habits as you and live as genuinely as you want to live. I miss it. I was thinking about it last night and I realized that I have only been truly happy and comfortable when I was with you all. I guess in just being so far away from you all its hard to keep myself intact. Part of me wants to be there with you, but the other part is saying "HEY COLLEGE!!! GO OUT AND BE A COLLEGE KID!!" But the conflict of these two things just makes me depressed- I don't really know if that makes since but that is how it feels.
Well anyway, I have more finals this week so I'll have to send you another letter sometime soon!

Sending much love your way!
-Gen

Letter #1

Dear Ovid,

I'm not going to bother with the "Hey! How are you?"s because it seems like that is all we ever do when we talk wall to wall on Facebook. Of course I wonder how you are and its such a relief to hear that you're not dead every time you write on my wall. But these letters are different. Not only do I want to know how you are doing (automatic response: GOOD) but what you are doing. You never really answered my question you know about how you were trying to raise $2,000 to get a car and how you were still looking for a place to live when you went to college and all of those girl troubles you had. Of course you told me all that back in September, so it'd be good to have an update. But I'm assuming that you're alright and that you found a way to get to school and a place to stay.
I'm sending you a big hug because I'm also kinda dealing with those issues for this upcoming semester at my college. What dorm room am I going to live in? When can I move in? How am I going to pay for gas to get home for the holidays? Boy problems. Ugh Gross. But its kinda funny, here at school I walk everywhere like you do and I feel a little closer to you even though you aren't here. I also think of you every time someone talks about One Tree Hill or whenever I see the clock zeroed out like 12:00pm etc. Do you remember when you told me that it meant that someone loves you? I'd like to think that. Here we say if the clasp of your necklace touches your pendant that someone loves you, but I believe you're clock more than I believe that.
If only you were here! There is so much I would tell you and that I would ask you about. Its hard to know how things are with such a limited connection. But I pray that you are doing well and that God is taking care of you!

Love & Peace!
-Gen

Background Information

I don't really expect anyone to read this. But I hope one day he does, because that would make my life a lot easier. What to say?
Hey people! My name is Genna and this is for my friend who I miss alot. No he doesn't know that when he sends me messages every other month that it kills me inside, the fact is he hardly talks to me because hes busy with college and lives 5,000 miles away from me (which really isn't an excuse because my other friends who live near him are in the same situation and I still talk to them).

I met him on a mission trip about 1/2 a year ago. For all intensive purposes his name was Ovid. He was with us all week and extremely attractive. We were equal in temperament and talent and I miss him so much. I met other friends on this trip who I will call Cora, Diana, and Peter and Heather. I talk with Cora the most often but Diana is only one year younger than me so I talk with her quite frequently as well. Peter and Heather are married and are expecting their first child at the moment which I'm very excited about.

Of course these are all code names- I don't want to seem like a freak to any one else who went on the trip with me.

So don't think of these Letters as real, but rather as part of a story that I'm trying to tell.